Like many Christians, I find myself wrestling with trust from time to time. Okay, actually a lot. Like right now.
For much of my adult life, I have felt called to write. And for most of it, I have ignored that calling. Just a few minutes ago I felt myself wanting to put off again what I know God is leading me to do – get my thoughts out there.
Most of this wrestling in my mind has to do with a lack of trust – in myself, in God’s plans, and in my abilities. I don’t talk about it much, but I have struggled for a long time with feelings of self-consciousness. It’s not depression or anything severe, but I often feel as if I don’t measure up to those around me.
I have been inspired greatly by some fantastic writers, speakers, and other types of creative people. People like Carey Nieuwhof, Jefferson Bethke, Craig Groeschel, among others.
The reason I tell you all of this is because one of the first things to pop in my head when I felt deep within me the call to write again were feelings of self-doubt.
But my blog will be boring… I don’t have much to say… People won’t even read it… I’m not educated enough to write about anything biblical…
Surely some of you have wrestled with some of those thoughts. It’s exhausting. It’s frustrating. And it’s disobedient.
I know that I am being led in this area. I know God is calling me to it. So why do I feel like my excuses are somehow good enough to push back against his leading? They aren’t.
So I’m choosing to trust. I’m choosing to believe that God will somehow use this to help people. Or if anything, to make me a better communicator of things that come through my head on a daily basis. That’s a good thought. Maybe God is just using this to help me get some thoughts out so there is more room for him. Either way, I know he’s leading me this direction. So I’m going to roll with it.
“Trust in Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you with path to take.” – Proverbs 3:5-6 (NLT)
I wish there was something brilliant I could say here that would drive home what this scripture is trying to say. But really, it’s simple. You have a few things to do, and as a result, you will get one major revelation in return. Your job is to:
1. Trust in the Lord.
- He knows more than you. Deal with it. Humble yourself and listen to what he tells you.
- “For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” – Isaiah 55:9
2. Do not depend on your own understanding.
- Your own understanding of situations will leave you short every single time. Get into God’s Word. Learn his voice. Trust what his word says. If you don’t agree, change your mind to match it.
3. Seek his will in all you do.
- I once heard it said that “the will of God is the Word of God.” God reveals himself and his will in the Word. Dig in. Seek after it. Find it. Trust it.
If you do these things, the promise from God’s Word is that he will show you which paths to take. You can sleep peacefully at night know that when the time is right, he will reveal to you which path to take.
In the mean time, try Paul’s advice from Philippians 4:6-7.
“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.“